My mother told me that being grateful is one of the keys to happiness. She told me this after I have expressed how grateful I am for everything in my life multiple times. That makes it sound curt, but it’s not. She helped me buy a new TV, and I’m grateful for that. She’s helped me and been there for me whenever I’ve needed her, whether I’m depressed or angry. She’s my best friend and I love her a lot. I’m grateful that I can have a mother like her.
I’m grateful for my sister-in-law Aila. She’s cared about me a great deal and I love her and my brother. She’s always been there to rely on when I have had trouble. She let me live with her briefly when I had to leave college. She stayed with me when I was coming out of the coma. She’s given me stern talking-to’s, and has pointed out the realities of life when I’ve most needed it. She’s pointed out my shortcomings with love and attention so that I can be a better person.
I’m grateful for my brothers Asa and Ian. Ian patiently listens to me when I have new crazy ideas that just might work. He makes time for me in his busy schedule of work and family. He doesn’t shoot down my ideas (anymore), and it’s been fantastic to talk to him. Asa supports me and understands me. He knows what it’s like to be depressed and he knows what it’s like to be troubled. He helps me let go when I’ve needed him. He’s listened to me when I could only turn to him, regardless of how crazy obsessive I might be.
I’m grateful for my father. I am grateful that he is an honest, caring man. My morals and values were greatly shaped by the trickle-down philosophy of Scott. He knows what to tell me when I can’t perceive reality correctly. He’s told me the facts of life, and why things are bad and good. He’s helped me be the best person I can be through his genetic memories and his attention.
I’m grateful for Maus. I am grateful that he understands me and stays with me even through the hardest times. There have been many times that in a ‘normal’ relationship he would have left me. There have been times that I offered no value to his life psychologically but he has stayed with me because he knew what I could be. He knew how to love me, and I love him. I’m grateful that in our relationship the loyalty and honesty is so rock solid that we can be our total selves to each other, and share our entire lives. It’s really lucky of me to have found a person like Maus in my life, and despite the payments that I have had to make to keep him in my life, I love him the same. We’re not going anywhere.
I’m grateful for my laptop. When my other laptop broke because the fan stopped working, my mother helped me buy a new one from WalMart. It’s not the perfect laptop (it was the second cheapest) but it helped me launch my self-employment. I think how great the world is despite the people who act against it, misguided or not, that technology keeps getting better and better. It makes our lives, my life, better and better.
I’m grateful that we’re not in a civil war, that I can be free to exercise my mind and speech, that big box stores exist, that curries exist, and that I am loved.
There’s many other things I’m grateful for that I can’t list all of them. In essence, I’m grateful for my life. No matter how many times I’ve tried to snuff it out I’ve been just lucky enough to fail every time. A lot of people don’t get that second- third- fourth- chance. I’m grateful that I got to see life get better, and not just better, but better and better.
I know I’m VERY blessed in these regards. I know that there are people who do not have great support networks, or their kids get assaulted, or their parents disown them. I know that there are people who can’t eat every day, or are hooked on meth. The thing is, even those guys have something to be grateful for, even if it’s just to learn; even if it’s just that they have the opportunity to change their own lives as long as they’re alive. I’ve met these people and more face to face, and for that I’m actually grateful. I learned in the hospital that every day you should think of something you’re grateful for. To be honest, that was one thing I never really understood when they would say it, but it’s true.
Try to think of something you’re grateful for today, and the next day, and the next day. You might find you appreciate your life a whole lot more than you thought. And if you have trouble finding something you’re grateful for, you can settle with just a good thought. A hope, a dream, a determination are good examples.
Open your own window to happiness.